Thursday, 28 August 2014

Better together :)

Wow, so much for a summer "holiday"!  The very day after I wrote my last post, I was struck down by what I can only call "summer flu".  I spent over a week on the sofa, my body aching, my nose continually streaming like a time, violently sneezing, going hot and cold and hot again, and through it all, being unable to sleep for longer than about 4 hours!  I felt terrible. Poor me!

But, once I'd got through all that, then, like I said, I knew I had to make a fresh start.  Although I'd joined up to Slimming World, I was getting a little frustrated with it.  To be honest, I'd become frustrated with all the big diet "plans".  The more I read about them, the less sense they all made.  Take for example:

- The low carb diet.  This says that you can't eat fruit or potatoes, but I can't believe those two things are 'bad' foods for anyone - in moderation, of course.

- Slimming World.  They say that full fat food is 'bad' but once you take the fat out and add a load of sugar, (i.e. MullerLight yogurts and Alpen Light bars), not only is it ok but it's "free" food!

- Weightwatchers.  They say the calories (points) in an avocado should be treated the same as that of a chocolate bar. How can that be right?

And so on... It just made me think instead of all these silly rules and proclamations, I should follow that oft-repeated quote:

I still think that processed food and added sugars should be best avoided, so with that in mind, I cancelled my SW membership (along with its terrible apps), and signed up to MyFitnessPal.  I entered all my details, set a target weight, and it gave me a daily calorie figure, along with guidelines for how many nutrients I should be eating (carbs, protein and fat).  I've been tracking every morsel so far, and have only once been over target - on a day where I was tired and grumpy - think there may be a link!?

Feeling also that things like this are better together, I've also joined one of the many, wonderfully supportive, Mumsnet threads, where we all have quite a substantial weight loss as our goal.  It's early days yet but the scale is going in the right direction, and I am starting to look after myself a little better (more sleep and using up all my many lovely toiletries! Why wait for a special occasion?)

I also have something else up my sleeve, which is starting on Monday 1st September (a new week, month and season - what could be better for a new beginning?).  I'm also hoping this venture will be one I am doing together with a friend, but it's not confirmed yet.  I shall let you know!  I am hugely excited about it though, as it fits in with my goals and my timeline for that perfectly.  More about that on Monday though!

Friday, 8 August 2014

Back from holiday with a new outlook and a fresh resolve

Long time no see bloggers!  I'm sorry I haven't blogged for so long but I've been away on holiday, without my laptop, which although cutting me off from the world, gave me a lot of time to think about things that have been going on in my life over the last few months.

As you have seen from my previous posts,  I have been trying but struggling to make those changes in my life that are necessary to improve it, my health and my body.  It's a common refrain of not having the time, or the energy, but being away from the pressures of my everyday life - and it really has been quite overwhelming in many ways over the last few months (I don't want to bore you with the specifics!) - has really given me time to think, not only about the relationship with myself, but also those around me - namely Mr Awesome.  

I've realised that I haven't just been neglecting myself recently, but I've also been neglecting him.  I fear that I have been a little wrapped up in my own life issues to support him with his.  I also see that in order to support him better, and of course to make my life better, I really need to make my own welfare a priority.  If I'm not in the best condition that I can be, then how can I offer support to others?  If I'm tired, grumpy and sluggish, how can I be optimistic and cheerful - not only with Mr A but with others in my life?

What I'm trying to say, is that I think being away has caused me to have that lightbulb moment, the one where everything 'clicks'.  The one where you say that "enough is enough" but really mean it.  Things can't go on as they have been.  Only giving myself 5-6 hours' sleep a night is not healthy, it's not productive.  Filling my body with sugar and processed rubbish is doing myself, my organs, my joints, a disservice.  Not moving enough, when I have been blessed with health, and (relative!) youth, is an insult to those who aren't as lucky.  I also realised on holiday that I worry too much.  And that has been affecting the rest of my life, to the point where instead of trying to box up a fear and let it go away, instead of taking each day one at a time, I sit on the sofa, trying to replace the gnawing tension in my stomach with a bellyful of biscuits.

Things are going to change.  I want to be the best version of me that I can be!

It's evening here now and we have been travelling for 14 hours, so it's definitely bedtime for me now.  But I've talked with Mr Awesome about all this, and we have made a pact.  No more junk food coming into the house.  More exercise.  Live healthily.  Respect our own bodies more, and in turn I think all these things will improve our own relationship, and teamwork.  I am also going to practise ways of not worrying, such as telling myself, "Can I change it?  No.  Then don't worry about it!"

I can't wait to begin. I'll write more tomorrow after a refreshing sleep!  :)

Tuesday, 22 July 2014

I'm still here...

...I've had to put this on the back seat for a week or two as life has just got in the way, as it does!  I have however managed to scale a 3,250m mountain in that time however, so I am keeping busy!  I will blog fully soon, along with my thoughts and plans for a fresh start - I am gone for the moment but not, I hope, forgotten!

Tuesday, 15 July 2014

How do you get 28 hours in a day? Anyone?

This isn't working, my time is not my own. Work, family, study; I'm getting pulled in all directions and I'm not finding any time left for myself. Believe me - the body is willing, the mind is desperate (especially after having caught some very unflattering glances of myself in the mirror), but once everybody and everything has been seen to, I sink on the sofa, or into bed, late, exhausted, spent. 

How do people make time for this? How do the successful ones carve out that hour for the gym, the thirty minutes for meal planning, the extra two hours' sleep? I can't stop working, I can't stop studying. I'm sleeping just six hours a night as it is. What can give? This is so frustrating. 

Thursday, 10 July 2014

Weigh-in Wednesday! Feeling a little blue...

Ugh.  I am just not having a good time of things lately.  Can anyone send some good karma my way please?  The first half of the week was taken up with, let's just say, a little disagreement between me and Mr Awesome...  And we all know how rubbish these things make you feel.

The last 48 hours have been taken up by a mad dash to apply to a university course before the deadline!  Personal statements, references, the lot!  It was one of those opportunities that I couldn't pass by.  I finally submitted the form an hour ago, and now comes the waiting game.  I guess, upon reflection, it hasn't all been a bad week.  If I get onto this course then some good will come from that.  And I'm sure marital relations will get back on track soon, I'm sure.  

But for the past few days I've just had that horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach.  So I haven't actively been following the SW plan, it's been way down my list of priorities.  So, when I weighed in today I was pleasantly surprised to be told I'd lost!  Lost... 0.1kg :-D  Ah well, they say every little counts.

I'm afraid the exercise still hasn't got back on track though.  And it pains me to admit to that!  Fretting and worrying in the early hours does nothing for getting me out of bed at 6am.  I am yet to discover how people make the time for it when everything else is so, I don't know, all-consuming?  I'm clearly missing something, somewhere.  I just wish I knew what.

Sunday, 6 July 2014

Soo... Can we just pretend last week didn't happen?!

Wow, so a post from this week was entitled, "What happens when fate laughs in the face of good intentions", and boy, did that sum up my week!  I can't remember when I had a week quite like it.  I got pulled in all different directions at work, I had a million and one jobs to do at home, and all my "personal" things, like exercising, taking care of myself, writing on here, got thrown to the wayside.  

I know it's not a healthy way to live, and actually I was pretty annoyed with myself, but I'm not sure what else I could have done.  It's hard to find balance, isn't it?  (Or is that just me!)   I know I need to work out how to stop myself being sidelined, how to stop not looking after myself when life gets busy, and how to stop putting everyone else's needs above my own health.  How do you do that?

Even this weekend, I don't feel like I've fully recovered.  I didn't get much sleep (woke up at 7am despite needing to pay off a serious sleep debt!) and again still having a never-ending "to do" list hasn't helped.  I feel exhausted.  It's not good.  Normally, Mr Awesome would be around to help shoulder some of it, but he too was working some serious overtime last week - he got home at 9pm on Friday!  I just wish they gave TOIL, or even paid him for the overtime - nope!  Ahhh I shouldn't let this turn into a personal rant and moan, though I fear it has (sorry!).  

So, while I'm trying to work it out, I'll give you my Sunday Plan for the week ahead, starting tomorrow with good old NMTZ.   Last weekend I also bought some nice workout gear that has yet to be worn, so I'll also make sure to take some pics and write a review! 

  • Monday  Jillian Michaels No More Trouble Zones (NMTZ) Circuits 4-7 - Link here (I loved the first half of this, so I'm excited to see what the rest of it is like.)
  • Tuesday  - rest day (hot bath to soothe my muscles!)
  • Wednesday Jillian Michaels Six Week Six Pack (SWSP) Level 1 - Link here
  • Thursday - rest day
  • Friday - Jillian Michaels Killer Buns and Thighs (KBAT) Level 1 - Link here
  • Saturday - Jillian Michaels No More Trouble Zones (NMTZ) Circuits 1-4
  • Sunday - rest day

Tomorrow is another day.  Next week is another week.  Bring it on, I say!!!

Wednesday, 2 July 2014

Weigh-in Wednesday!

Wow, I can't believe what a whirlwind this week at work has been.  Out of nowhere, I had some huge tasks for impossible deadlines, ones that were giving me just 5 hours' sleep a night - so as you can see, the blogging suffered, as did the exercise plans - I'm afraid I haven't been able to fit any at all in this week. <insert embarrassed face here>.  I've not quite got through to the other side yet, let's just say I am really looking forward to Saturday and a lie in!

Anyway, enough of my woes, as promised, I am checking in for my first Weigh-in Wednesday!  

Earlier, I got an email from the Slimming World website reminding me it was time for my first weigh in.  To be honest, I was so tired that I couldn't even remember what my starting weight was, so I wasn't sure what to expect.  And I definitely wasn't expecting miracles, as last night, Mr Awesome had come home with a pot of cookies and cream Haagen Dazs for me (I think he could see how stressed I was getting from work).  However, once I entered this morning's weight, the site announced I had.... lost 1.4kg!! 

Errr - I have just googled how much that is in pounds and my jaw has almost hit the floor.  It's just over 3lbs!!  How on earth did that happen?  Wow.  Imagine if I had managed to exercise more than twice in the last week huh...

In general, the SW way of eating has really cut down on my sugar intake, and as a result I'm noticing that I'm not really feeling hunger pangs as much as I used to.  I do love the fact that I don't have to weigh anything or count points or calories, as who has really got time for that?!  As for sugar cravings, well that (small!) pot of cookies and cream was the only sweet/sugary thing that I've had since starting this blog - before, I'd happy eat a pot a night <insert yet another embarrassed face!> - but now I just don't feel the urge.  I also think this blog is helping, as I feel accountable to it, in fact I even feel guilty when I don't pop on with a daily update!

Anyway, it's getting late here now, and I still have some more work to do before bed, so, for now, I shall bid you farewell, and let's hope for a bit more spare time to blog and exercise once the weekend is here!